awkward and nervous

I entered this decade a lot better than I'm leaving it.

Physically, mentally; a lot has changed for the worse. In each passing year, life gives me more of a reason to not be living it. I've had countless health issues over the last decade, too many to list honestly. Several situations where I told myself “could this get any worse?” and then it did. Truly a statistical improbability, yet life really knows how to fuck you when you're already down.

PSA: this is a rant-y post, so if you don't wanna listen to me whine, I'd advise not reading this.